medik8ted

I am hopelessly addicted To this potent drug My mind and soul Starting into obsession As days go by I fear I'm losing myself My identity; my independence. Part of me Wants to break the bonds Of this consuming pill And the other just wants To be happy. It is my tragedy: This drug has a face and a name.

A heavy weight on my soul Pressure too great to take Surrounded by despair Wishing it was fake Total emotional shutdown So much easier that way No one in; nothing out Keep in everything I have to say These rusted iron chains Bind me to this earth Rise up to meet the sun My freedom a rebirth

Surrounded by people Yet so utterly alone My inner consciousness winnowed Down to only skin and bone Yearning for continuous light In these taxing ups and downs The darkness always present Waiting for the next round A single lovely tear Turns into a river of despair I lose all control This feeling, once so rare Loathing my self Because of this helplessness Relinquishing my power To fear's cutting caress

Eternal flame, endless horizon Your hand is locked in mine A shameless, faceless, nameless love All we need and want is time Your face invades my mind Overtaking all the rest Anything or anyone else Is only second best A light shining through the darkness Or a jewel among the rocks You are a redeeming angel A key for all my locks

There's no depression With a blue sky It masks itself Like the fakeness inside You tear me apart With accusing eyes I am alone And I begin to cry Crying inside, But outward I'm fine Razorblade tears Those tears are mine The anger turns Into a bleeding sigh The heart is hard- It's your turn to die

The feeling is gone, now replaced with hurt I realize I'm alone You ask why; I have no response Even though I threw the first stone Ending something beautiful tears me up inside Those tears have turned into tears I needed someone and you were there Attachment was one of my fears Every day the same thing, Now on to something new My first but not my last... I will be fine without you

To break open her shell Was to see the inside of her heart. A heart so pure and genuine, She kept it set apart. Honesty with a little Kindness on the side. So filled up it was, There was no room left for pride. She waited for him for 7 years- A price she was happy to pay. But when he finally got there, No "I love yous" he had to say. He left again one morning- No goodbye, no hug, no kiss. She never heard from him again, But the accident was hard to miss. One car with a lone male passenger careened off a bridge in the night. The ring on his left hand was a sign that shed some light. His accident still did not

Rot me like cancer Dance in my blood Cut up my insides Curses like mud All I am to you Is a shit and a half Intoxicating memories Not made with a laugh I waste away With nothing left See all you've taken Made me bereft Bereft of love Bereft of feeling Just a girl so cold My senses are reeling As I am drained Of the sanity I once had I look at your life now I'm not even mad To be envious of shit Is to be weak That is one thing I'm not My eyes will not leak

Hatred sears In an empty tomb The dead are walking now And trouble ensues Inherant need A desire for blood Sullies the soul No nip for this bud Those who still live Are already dead Their insides are rotten No thought fills their head